Then there are my readers. The ones that come here regularly for...hell, I dunno why. Perhaps they think I have some answers. They might think that I agree with them on issues concerning the jewish among us. Support. A laugh or two. You name it. They come. Thousands. That amazes me in a way.
Those regular visitors here will have noticed that my essays are coming fewer and further between lately. I would tell you that I have been busy, but that would be a lie. I would tell you that I have run out of things to say, but that too would be a prevarication.
I could tell you that I am frustrated with this site and how it is being grouped with other sites and that would be closer to the truth.
As you know(especially if you have such a site yourself), the general reading public is not wary of letting you know how they feel about your work. Good, bad or in-between...they will tell you and they will reveal themselves in so doing. I have published and debated the more stable of those that oppose my efforts. I have had online scuffles with purveyors of other sites that disagree with my opinions. I have enjoyed the camaraderie of like-minded individuals that applaud what I write, telling me that I have put into words something they have always felt but never voiced. Those are the precious few. It is vanity on my part to acknowledge their kudos...but vanity can be a driving force.
But they are not the 'thousands'. The majority pick and choose. Hear what they want.
I have known 'rednecks'. Every place on earth has them. It is just we amerikans that have named them that. The bigoted. The narrow-minded. The fearful. The stupid. They are to be found everywhere. Too many find their way here, and to the sites that I am grouped with. "The antisemitic sites". I know. I chose this path. I chose it to define rational 'antisemitism'. To delineate between above mentioned idiots and intelligent well-meaning examination of over-represented jewish power in the West. Tough thing to do. The tribe fights me. The idiots fight me. I didn't allow for two battles. My message is getting lost in the fray. Few wanted to hear it in the first place...fewer remain now. I dodge the 'patriots' and the 'white-ists' with this post and that. But they won't have it any other way. If I see the domination of yiddish control, I must want to save the union...or decrease immigration...or fight for second ammendment rights...or remind everyone of the teachings of this messiah or that one...or preserve a country that never was. Frankly, I don't give a flying fuck about any of those things. But don't tell anyone.
It seems there is no place for my political platform....no matter how common-sense based I think it is. Go figure. Good thing I never ran for any office.
But I consider the source when I assess most of my readers. I too was raised in a all-white suburb of a country run by white old men that fought just(sic) wars for a subset of greedier white(jewish)men. This had an effect on me to be sure. It seems a different effect though. I take little pleasure in remembering those dream-like times. It seems most out here in anti-judaic land were mesmerized by them. Now they are incensed that they cannot return. Hi ho.
I'm through trying to point these things out to them.
I have had my say about that trickery. You figure it out for yourselves. Or don't.
So 'howdarei' will continue. But with a new direction. I might even change my masthead. Rather than be entirely 'anti-jewish', it will be more anti-everything. I will group the 'white-ists', the 'patriots', and the religious in a kind of "me versus them" narrative, which I have learned through this blog is the battle I should be fighting at this point.
I tire of trying to make the stupid think for themselves. Can't be done. For the rest...hang on. This could be a pretty wild ride.